Serendipity

What do I know about life? I’m 30, still relatively young. I’ve heard so many people say “At 30, your just getting started in life” and to that I say “True”’. I’ve also come to understand that every individual person lives there own life and the hardships that come, chip away at the human we are. We can line up a bunch of 30 year olds and each person will be different then the next.

This concept of life starts whole. Whether thats for a child born into a single parent household living in the ghettos, or a child with two loving parents who live a modest life in a rural part of town. It’s what that child knows as whole. Each child then takes a step into life and with each and every step they take, the hammer of life and the chisel of pain and failure, chip away at this child. Every experience, every interaction, and every decision shapes who we become. The way we respond in the face of these obstacles dictates what doors open up for us. If we respond with an unwillingness to understand and learn from our failures then we fall into a cycle. This cycle becomes that of a shield to protect whatever pride and ego that we have remaining. It protects us from facing our shame and demise but if our response is to face those fears, listen, understand and accept our failures then the doors of growth and opportunity opens.

So once again “What do I know about life?”

I know that life wasn’t what everyone made it out to be. That the mask that everyone wore eventually broke the older I got. I started seeing things that I couldn’t properly comprehend. At 16, I decided what I had wanted for my life and dedicated over a decade to chasing that dream. That dream would be intercepted by obstacles such as ego, notoriety, love, hatred, death, suicide, and so much more. By 20 I held a successful entertainment company that would crash and burn within a single night. By 22 I fell in love with a family I had created for myself, by 24 I was a father figure to a child that wasn’t mine. There is so much in between those years such as homelessness, success within my career, confusion and loss of my passions. This is just the tip of the ice berg and I know with each post I’ll dive deeper into my life. So when people say I don’t know anything about life yet, I can proudly say, I know enough and I know so much more will come the older I get. It’s not about age that brings wisdom, wisdom comes when you are able to stand up to fear.