Serendipity

Dear Me,

You’re still alive and chasing the dream you’ve always had. I’m still holding on to every ounce of our dream because I think we’ve always known that without it we would be content with a completely and utterly useless life. I know I can’t have that.

It’s going to suck for a while there. You’re going to go through one of the hardest parts of your life where everything crumbles and breaks. Everything you’ve worked for will disappear. What people say will hurt you so deep that you’ll never be the same again. I’m sorry that I wasn’t strong enough for you. The animosity that you carry afterwards will completely kill who we were and I’m so sorry. Enjoy ever second of the happiness we have. You’ll learn that life isn’t fair.

You got married, yet it was one of the saddest memories we have. Everyone was there that mattered except for the two people that mattered the most to me. I know how happy you are with them now. It wasn’t anyones fault. How could we have known? You were trying your best to do the best. You were young. You acted with love and sometimes that was the worst decision because she was young too. How could she have known what you meant. You love her and that love doesn’t disappear but know it never was the same ever again.

You’ll be okay. We’ve had to start life all over again but this time you truly did do it alone. I’ll update you on how life goes but for now you’re okay. It hurts to see everyone smile but that’s why we keep to ourself and don’t go anywhere. We can do this. I hope.

Sincerely,

Future You