Serendipity

The inner workings of my brain are quite fascinating, even for myself. For all my thoughts, there exist characters born from these thoughts. These thoughts are born from experiences, traumas and other factors that make us human. For all the suffering and inability to understand, these characters are just apart of me but individuals born and molded specifically to help me understand what I might not have been able to before. These characters will challenge my state of mind, continuing to push me to better myself and bring up discussions that have allowed for empathy, sympathy and introspection. Where trauma’s might be buried, these characters take on my trauma and unravel it so that I am forced to face it. “For pain and suffering are a sign that wisdom is close by” these characters are a part of me, understanding that being comfortable makes me uncomfortable so they push me to heights that are unimaginable.

Being this way was something of recent discovery. I have always talked to myself but it was within recent year where I allowed for these thoughts to take on characters. I understood the dangers so I started therapy around the same time. With professional supervision, I’ve been able to explore some of the deepest parts of my memories, emotions and relationships. Therapy was what allowed for these characters to go from thought to formulating actual words. I was able to finally understand what I couldn’t before. I’ve continued to unravel parts of myself that I hadn’t known existed and in doing so I have a greater understanding of who I am and what I can be for those I love.

My thoughts are constant. Even as I sleep, these thoughts are with me. I’m slowly healing wounds that I thought were never going to ever heal. Where I thought I was crazy, I started to understand that the brain was a powerful tool. It’s given me the ability to be able to speak and listen, the ability to connect and share. Be uncomfortable with comfortability and continue to grow and learn about yourself. There is a world of discovery but for discovery only comes with willingness.