Serendipity

It’s been a while. I hope all of my readers are doing well.

For the last week, I’ve spent most of it off my phone—learning to do things for myself. I no longer have any social media, so any promotion for this blog will be done as organically as I can through here. Counterintuitive, especially for a blog like this, but it was a promise I made to myself.

The first couple of days were hard. I was always reaching for my phone. I think I had grown accustomed to how I responded over the years—checking my messages just in case someone I loved was in trouble, or someone needed me. Now, my phone usually stays away from me.

I’ve been watching more long-form content, purposefully learning, and reading a lot more lately. My sleep has gotten much better as well. I no longer carry the anxiety of wondering if someone will message me and need me.

It’s a lifestyle I lived for over ten years—waiting by my phone for a call or a text saying, “I need you,” or “Can you help me?” It got easier when I realized that the same people who used to message me no longer saw me as relevant.

So I put my phone down and began consciously focusing on a more peaceful life.

I was in more pain than I had ever been in, so I put all the noise away.

Here I am—trying again and again to find what I couldn’t before.