Personal Blog
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If Time is a Variable
If time is a variable, then is life its opposing force? Because if time flies — swift and merciless — and life simply stands still, then what am I? Nature evolves, seasons shift, and yet I remain… unmoved. A stagnant variable. I feel time pass through me like wind through empty branches, and all it Continue reading
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The Quiet Unraveling
The more I explore the depths within myself, the harder it becomes to understand who I really am. I know how that sounds. It should be the opposite—the deeper I go, the more clarity I should gain. And yet, here I am, still wondering, who am I? I spent the greater part of my 20s Continue reading
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Rejected by Silence
I had a conversation with my therapist the other day — one that, in hindsight, made me understand the depths of my mental state. We were talking about death, and I told her that if I were to die, I’d hope there wouldn’t be a funeral. Just let me die in whatever peace I had Continue reading
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What I’ve Wanted…
I think all I’ve ever wanted was to be wanted. I pull away because at times it’s easier that I hurt myself than if others do. I keep close because at least if they’ll hurt me I’ll know and can pull away. Logically I understand that I am loved. Mentally and emotionally, I’m lost in Continue reading
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Life Isn’t About Being Happy
What I’ve come to understand about life is the beauty of life itself — the spectrum on which it exists and unfolds. When we talk about life, let’s stop and look at it differently for a moment. What is the definition of happy? Of sad? We reduce happiness to a smile and sadness to a Continue reading
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Why I Stopped Drinking and Smoking
I stopped drinking and smoking for one particular reason. Want to know why? As cliché as it sounds, I fell in love. Yup. That’s it. End of story. Simple and straight to the point. …Except it’s not that simple. Let me explain. Eleven years ago, I met my wife and her sister. I wasn’t a Continue reading
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The Cost of Resilience
You’re either resilient or you break under the pressure. That’s how I’ve come to understand life. So much of life is spent learning to walk the path we’re given, and along that path come obstacles that test our mental fortitude. Are we brave enough to face them? Strength is only part of the puzzle — Continue reading
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Rich or RICH
Rich. For the most part, it’s all I ever wanted. I wanted to be rich. Rich enough that money didn’t have to be a part of the conversation. Rich enough that people would stop looking down on me. Rich enough to silence everything. Rich enough to find peace. Money was always a part of the Continue reading
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The Strength of Vulnerability
Vulnerability—it’s a word that’s been thrown around a lot lately. Too often, it’s associated with weakness and pain. Scroll through social media, and you’ll find endless clips reinforcing this idea: how women find vulnerability in men unattractive, how men don’t feel safe expressing their emotions because it makes them seem less of a man. It’s Continue reading
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The Weight I Carry
“I could never die, nor even think about something like suicide because, for as hard as life might be, for as much as I’ve been through, there are people I could never disappoint.” I said this to my therapist last year. For the longest time, it had been just a feeling—an unspoken truth buried beneath Continue reading
About Me
I’m no one more special than any of you reading this. I work as a custodian during the evenings but every other time of the day I spend chasing a dream I’ve had since I was 16.
I have always believed there to be more to this life and I hope with this blog, my stories and journey in life, that I can share my experiences with all of you.
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